Frustration
Frustration is an emotional response to circumstances where one is obstructed from arriving at a personal goal.[1] The more important the goal, the greater the frustration. It is comparable to anger and disappointment. Sources of frustration may be internal or external. Internal sources of frustration involve personal deficiencies such as a lack of confidence or fear of social situations that prevent one from reaching a goal. Conflict can also be an internal source of frustration when one has competing goals that interfere with one another. External causes of frustration involve conditions outside the person such as a blocked road; or conditions linked to the person's actions but not directly such as lack of money, or lack of sexual activity. In psychology, passive-aggressive behavior is a method of dealing with frustration. According to N.E. Miller "frustration produces instigation to a number of different types of response, one of which is an instigation to some form of aggression." [2]
The only word that acurately describes my feelings now. Past week has been great. All I can say is that the fasting was toturing but the results were exceedingly rewarding. The X'mas party on the 19th Dec was quite successful. Thank you Jesus. My testimonial was last min, in prompt to and all messed up but his ways are not my ways... haha...so I won't try to predict or judge what he is doing. All I know is that his intentions are always good. My weekends were awfully short and tiring. Spent my nights doing x'mas shopping with Sheep. Not a pleasant experience. Last min shopping is never a good thing due to the high stress level. Fell sick on Sunday and basically my whole weekend was quite ruined. I couldn't attend the big doggie gathering coz of the last min shopping too. So Disappointing! We had gift exchange with some friends. It was ok, not too bad. Just that I had too much caffine due to the fact that I was trying to stay awake throughout supper and I couldn't sleep when I got home. So here I am, tired, cranky from the draining weekend, feeling sore from the flu and extremely frustrated by a thousand and one things.
Just had to blog...I don't have a proper outlet so if I continue to bottle things up I would really just explode and die.
Christmas is just 2 days away... Then comes newyear... Winter is always the darkest time of the year, the darkest time of our lives as we evaluate our lives for the year. How have we lived life? I've been married for almost 4 months now. How do I feel? Too caught up in the processes of being married to experience the true bliss of marriage. I've quit smoking for about 5 months now... I will never go back to it, it stinks. I got baptised, that's about the best thing I ever did this year. My teeth are in braces now..another 2 years to go. Sometimes I feel like my whole life is braces. As God is trying to straighten me up, the pain of moving out of my comfort zone can be very uncomfortable. I feel restricted in certain areas and it's harder to live life by the books but at the end of the day, just like the million dollar smile you're gonna get..it's worth it. I hope.. My hair is purple on one side, I am still trying to lose weight. I tendered my resignation. Wow... 2008...I can't wait for u to end.
I watched the movie "Twilight" on Mildred's B'dae. Meet Edward Cullen, the Gorgeous Vampire. It's not a fantastic storyline with the best cast of actors but I was completely swept off my feet by the romantic setting and the charming Robert Pattinson which I thought was not even cute to begin with. How deprived... To make matters more interesting, I bought 3 out of 4 of the "twilight" saga on Sun. 3 is because "Eclispe" was out of stock...and yes, I have made a reservation. When you can live for eternity, what would you live for? Recently, I just concluded that the myth or belief passed down from mothers that you should always marry someone who loves you more than you love him is false. I have learnt that giving and taking in a relationship is unseparable. If you can't give, neither can you take. Sad right... So all you women out there... GEt a life! What is it really like to fall hopelessly and deeply in love with a person? How does it feel to want a person so much? Does such a relationship even exist? I know it does with God but man? I can't remember.... This movie really started a churn in my emotions and called forth the deepest lust in my soul for love, attraction and excitement. Were these all I have been missing out on? Underneathe the busy schedule, the tired mind and worn out body, a part of my soul has a burning desire.. A longing that no man can comprehend, that no one can satisfy. When everything feels like the movies, yea you'll bleed just to know you're alive. So if that is the movies, then why does my life seem so unreal...
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