1 month and so many things...
I bought my house last month. Paid 5k upfront for it and very soon I can move in with Sheep and my 2 dogs. Yes, I am adopting a new puppy and her name is Pudding. She is a cross between a schnauzer and a spitz. Trina Wang my pole student has a cuz whose dog gave birth to 5 babies. I have yet to see her but I know she would be so perfect. God given pet. I spent the last 2 days shopping for furniture. (DAmm tiring) We have almost everything alrdy! Sofa, TV, Fridge, Washing machine (300 bucks 2nd hand), bed( on its way). On the 1st of this month, AcroPolates celebrated her first yr anniversery at Arena. I did a spinny performance with one of my student Nicole. We had our first ever spinny performance in Singapore and I must say and thank God for making it such a success despite all my silly mistakes. The party was awesome and Sheep even came down to support me. He surprised me with 2 very exotic pole dancing instruction books that costs alot. I was very touched!!! (Although the books never really taught me anything new.)
Many things happened in just this month and I don't know how to begin. Let's start with God and his works. 2 months ago I was offered to do a performance for NDP and I was quite thrilled at the idea of bringing pole to a level national awareness. But a selfish part of me didn't want to sacrifice my 1 to 3pm dance class at oschool as we had to report at 2pm. I prayed with all my heart and might asking God if this was what he wanted me to do. It is according to his will so I asked if he could make the officials allow us to go in later after 3pm. I knew that nothing is impossible for him but nothing happened. As time went by and I attended rehearsal after rehearsal, I realised that I wanted this more than I thought I did initially and thanked God that he allowed this to happen. I was still disappointed that I had to skip class but I knew that if it was his will then I would have no complains. God is good all the time. Pastor Tan shared in one of the recent scvs that we revolve ard God's schedule. He does things at his pace for the good of all of us. And I learnt something very valuble through this incident. God didn't ans my prayers just becoz I wanted it my way. He waited till I had the right intentions in my heart before he gave the green light and lo and behold... the officials said that we could gather at waterloo at 3.30pm and they would pick us up from there. AMAZING!
I did another very daring move last week. I signed up for a 1 for 1 package at True Yoga. Mum and I would now be sharing a package. God really provides for me. I love him so much. Now I can go for unlimited Bikram yoga a week and pay the same amt as I have been to Daphane which I wasn't feeling very good abt coz her Dad paid for the classes. It's great to do it the right way.
I am inbetween changing Cg now. Have been visiting and looking ard. Im kinda glad to be moving on although its also kinda taxing to start all over. But it will be good. I know it. I hope Esther will join me too. :)
Paul has asked if I could serve every week. I am scared but I know the time wil come when I am to face the same question again. Am I willing to lay down my life for Him. Ans is still yes, but give me time Lord.
Lately I have been impacted to change. Still trying, not easy but still working on it.. Attitude determines your altittude. I wanna be someone of great capacity so that I can do greater works for JEsus. I wanna be a person of a rich prayer life. I wanna have a deep and rich relationship with God. I wanna start burning and be so on fire again. I don't wanna grow cold. I wanna be so alive in his presence. I wanna develop a mature and long lasting love with him.
You are More than enough for me yet I can never have enough of you.
You are the living waters and the consuming fire.
You are agressive and jealous yet gentle and meek.
You are a deer that springs forth and a dove that weeps.
You are Joy, you are peace, you are everything I need.
You are who you are.
The lord whom I seek.
I have made a decision to allow God to be my strength. I am ready for change. I know that I have not experienced God's true annointing and creativity. His purpose and destiny for me. I only had a glimspe but I have yet to experience his full power, not even 1 percent. Now, I am hungry. Open wide your mouth and it shall be filled. I am excited in the depths of my spirit.
The red thread has to be cut.
Shinobi, Blade under heart.
I see no meaning in this dream.
The only ending is bloody and sad.
The truth will unfold and lies will be told.
The petals of beautiful blossoms are scattered upon the floor,
as the Hime drags her feet away from the door.
Her beloved Ninja whom she held so dear,
has forgotten his promise to love only her.
He has buried his head in another's lovely bosoms,
She knows its not his fault and made a decision.
She picks up the Kunai, he so carelessly dropped.
and cut loose the red thread that bounded 'em so tight.
It hurt her to move each time she tried,
but now she felt as if she could fly.
Wings of the Eagle,
swept her away.
It wasn't her Ninja but she was to stay.
Her heart is shaken, her soul torn apart,
she gazes at the dove who rests in her heart.
She runs to her king and kisses his feet,
and begs for forgiveness and a place to sleep.
I know why I enjoy reading Nana's anime so much. She is like a reflection of myself. Her selfishness, her ambitions, her insecurities, her pride, her passion, her way of expressing, her pain, her weakness, her talent, her sensitivity, her love, her life. I am only still at 73. Can't wait to continue.
I have 40 bucks in my bank account and rashes on my face. But life is still Good. Amen.
sakura blossom falls at: 12:25 AM
